life update: december 24

Hello friends!! I'm supposed to be cleaning and preparing to go to Brisbane tomorrow, so there is obviously no better time than right now to write a blog post. I have a couple of blog posts on specific topics up my sleeve but today I just want to write about how my life has been the past 3 weeks and my plans for the next two weeks. SO first thing - I accidentally dyed my hair red. This was actually before my last blog post and has been fully documented on my instagram & facebook for those who are friends with or follow me. I bleached my hair one night, as you do, and it was still super duper brassy and orange but I couldn't wait because I had a job interview the next day (ha-dee-ha) so I put pink dye right on top of the brassy orange hair and it went bright red. I actually grew it like it a little bit, despite vowing to never have red hair, but I think having accidental red hair is okay. It faded out to orange which I loved, but I've since redyed it.

Life in general, Mental healthSam McKenna24 December 2017brisbane, christmas, hair, mental health, update, work Comment

part two: more than I can take

Hi friends! It's the blog you've all been waiting for. I promised to write part two of my journey seeking help for my mental illness, and here it is. If you missed part one, here it is. Warning: there are descriptions of self harm in this blog. Previously on the mental illness diaries~ I left off the last blog saying that I didn't seek help again for my mental health issues for aboooout another two years. During that two years, my mental illness didn't just lie dormant - it probably got much much worse (aka it did get worse, I know it did, you know it did, we all know it did). Things got worse - and that's not to say that I didn't have good and happy times too, because I did. I had some wonderful times, but I also had a lot of times where things were just really bleak and I didn't want to exist.

Mental healthSam McKenna4 December 2017anxiety, depression, mental health, mental illness, psychologistComment

♡✧ december ✧♡

Today is the first day of December and I am excited for a couple of reasons.

Every Friday, my fav Em and I go on our morning coffee run and we get donuts! Our regular coffee haunt only has donuts on Fridays, and we like to indulge ourselves. Admittedly, we indulge ourselves far too often (Daiso, amiright?) but this has become a weekly routine and I look forward to it all week. Last Friday I had this incredible caramel donut and I was so happy.

Mental health, Life in generalSam McKenna1 December 2017anxiety, december, depression, mental health, mental illnessComment

part one: i'm broken but i'll try

Last week, I did something HISTORICAL. I went to Headspace - I made an appointment and I followed through and I for one am absolutely shocked. For those who've stuck around as my friend for a while, you might already know that over the last 6~ish years of diagnosed depression/anxiety, I have tried like........ very many times to start seeing a psychologist and only once made it to the stage of actually seeing a psychologist. I try really hard to be open about my mental illness and my experiences dealing with it, but I don't think I've ever really documented it beyond a vague post here or there. I was going to write this all up as one post but it's becoming way too long so I'm going to break it up into parts. This is part 1.

Mental healthSam McKenna16 October 2017mental health, mental illness, personal, psychologist Comments