life update: december 24
Hello friends!! I'm supposed to be cleaning and preparing to go to Brisbane tomorrow, so there is obviously no better time than right now to write a blog post. I have a couple of blog posts on specific topics up my sleeve but today I just want to write about how my life has been the past 3 weeks and my plans for the next two weeks. SO first thing - I accidentally dyed my hair red. This was actually before my last blog post and has been fully documented on my instagram & facebook for those who are friends with or follow me. I bleached my hair one night, as you do, and it was still super duper brassy and orange but I couldn't wait because I had a job interview the next day (ha-dee-ha) so I put pink dye right on top of the brassy orange hair and it went bright red. I actually grew it like it a little bit, despite vowing to never have red hair, but I think having accidental red hair is okay. It faded out to orange which I loved, but I've since redyed it.
I had my last appointment with my psychologist for the year. It was really nice to catch-up and plan how to manage my mental health until my next appointment in the new year (over a month later!). I agreed that I'd restart writing a journal, which is something I have wanted to do for a while. I also said I'd try to update my blog more, but so far I have not been met with success. I've been feeling really uninspired lately so even though I've wanted to write, I just haven't been able to find the words to say anything that I wanted to.
I've been really happy with my sessions so far because it gives me a space where I can talk openly about things that are happening in my life, things that have happened previously, and how I manage things as they happen. It has helped me to validate some of my own feelings and helped me to see that most of the time I actually manage quite well in stressful situations, and often I will find ways to empower myself to make it through those situations.
Things at work have improved a lot in the last couple of weeks. I was really struggling for a while, and I feel like I was still struggling up until Friday. I had a chat to my manager about how stressed I was and how I know that my mental illness was affecting my work and how I felt like we weren't working well together and we both have been putting in a lot more effort with communication. So while things weren't super duper 100% peachy they were a lot more bearable. I think I'm okay now because I've basically admitted to myself that we do not mesh and work well together and that's okay. It's even more okay because of my next update.
I got a new job! So the job interview I mentioned way back in the second paragraph apparently went really well. I was so convinced that I didn't get the job because it was taking a long time for the panel to get back to me about the result (it took like 3 weeks and it felt like torture, I'd basically given up and resigned myself to the fact that I'd be stuck in my current job forever until I quit). I am really really happy. It felt like floating when I found out. I am so thrilled. I start on the third week of January and I honestly cannot wait! I'm still at the same workplace, just in a different area who seem really wonderful and I already know most of the people so there won't be too much of a transition period. I also get to have a farewell lunch so that's exciting.
Juneau and I have watched some good things over the last couple of weeks. We finished Curb Your Enthusiasm. The two really good things we watched are Mindhunter and Fargo. Mindhunter was soooo good and I'm really excited for more episodes to be released. I've only watched the first season of Fargo but it was so engaging and when we're both back in Melbourne that will be the first thing I ask to watch. We also watched the new Star Wars movie which I really loved. I want to rewatch the rest of the movies because I've only seen each of them once, so maybe that can be a goal over the next few weeks and I can convince my sister to watch it with me.
I've done A LOT of christmas shopping. I feel like I spent sooooo many hours upon hours of shopping for a small handful of gifts because I am so fussy. I really hope everyone loves what I got for them because I tried to put a lot of thought into the gifts (most of them anyway lol).
I dyed my hair again! It's supposed to be pink and yellow but the pink didn't come out very well because I didn't tone after bleaching. It still looks really good. My pal Emily also tinted my eyebrows which made them look sooooo much less sparse than they did before which is sooooo good. I'm yet to master the art of eyebrows but it's on my long list of things I want to be good at.
I fly out to Brisbane tomorrow. The last two years I have spent Christmas in Melbourne with my friend Matt. We didn't do anything Christmas themed, it was more that we didn't have anyone else to hang out with (and we're soulmates). ACTUALLY we watched Die hard. That was Christmas themed. ANYWAY It was the first time I'd spent Christmas apart from my family when I moved here, so I was really sad. Last year was a bit less sad, but I still felt very lonely and homesick. It will only be my eldest sister and younger brother tomorrow, but the rest of my family is driving down on Wednesday so that will be nice. Tomorrow we're having a Frys Nugget festival because we can and it's Christmas.
I'm so happy to be out of work for the year and going to Queensland for a lil holiday. I am in desperate need of rest and I've spent much of the last three days sleeping since work finished. I've been SO tired and I can't even point to anything and say THAT'S WHY I'M TIRED because I realistically have not done that much and have done much less than I had planned on doing over those days. I'm very keen to see my Queensland pals after a long reprieve. I'm spending new years with my two of my fav humans of all time, my binches. Our four year old group chat is still going strong. I'm also really excited for the Yayoi Kusama show. SO VERY EXCITED.
This is where the blog post ends. I miss Juneau a whole bunch because they're in Sydney visiting family and I won't see them until January 5th which is SO FAR AWAY. I'm going to eat leftover hot chips and watch Adventure Time on the couch. Adios. Text your mum that you love her, go for a little walk, and kick some dandelions so they spread. Love love love from me xoxo
I was going to put photos in this blog but I honestly am feeling very tired and I want to watch Adventure Time and read because I've spent the day cleaning and I'm draaaained. So just have this pic collage of my face today and my messy unstraightened hair.
