Five things I want to do this year
It has been a really long time since my last blog post, again. I keep saying that I'll post more, and I fully intend to do so. I promise I haven't abandoned my blog, life just keeps Happening A Lot. I feel like I'm doing okay right now. Things have been a bit shit for the last couple of weeks, I had a Big Depression and went up a dose for my antidepressants (which was overdue), and then I spent a week in bed with tonsillitis. Now that I'm recovered, I'm feeling so much more motivated to be A Human Person and it's very exciting.
I've wanted to do this blog for a long time because I feel like when I put something in writing where other people are going to see it, I'm a lot more motivated to actually do it. I'm three months too late for the yearly "things I wanna achieve this year" but this is my "things I wanna achieve this year" blog, so welcome, here are some things I wanna do this year.
Keep blogging
I'm really happy that I started blogging, even if I haven't devoted myself to it as much as I want to. I used to feel like I didn't deserve to be heard and that I didn't have anything important to say. I know that that's not true.
I want to establish a post schedule and stick to it and I want to blog about more things. I want to devote more time to my blog and to thinking about what I want to say and what I want to document here.
I just changed to Squarespace from Wordpress which I'd wanted to do for a while and having a cute new website layout and look is making me really want to write more! It took such a long time for my domain transfer to actually work, so I'm really happy to finally be posting a blog again. Welcome to the New Boi.
Start a Youtube channel
I've posted about this on Instagram and I filmed a first video and was basically finished editing and then I decided that I hated it. This is definitely still happening - I've been thinking about this for a few months. I didn't watch any Youtubers for a long time but last year I started watching a whole bunch of people and I feel so inspired by them.
I want to start making videos for Youtube because it seems like fun to me. I have a lot of aspirations (this list basically) and things that I've wanted to do for so long but have never been able to summon the motivation. I think having a way to document these things beyond an Instagram post here and there is going to be fun and fulfilling. Who knows, maybe I'll inspire others the way that I feel I have been inspired by the Youtubers I watch.
Make art
This is something that I have wanted to do again for a long time. I'm really scared of making art again. I'm really scared of being bad at it. There have been brief stints over the last couple of years where I've tried to push myself back into art again, but without much success. I miss making art so badly, and watching others make art just makes me want to do it again.
I think the hardest thing about going back to it is that I feel like I've lost the skills that I used to have. I give up really easily if something doesn't work. I'm scared of failing. I know that I just have to push through those feelings and do it because I'm going to get nowhere if I keep doing nothing.
I've started a little bit but haven't pushed myself. It's time to push.
Learn to sew
- Fast fashion sucks
- I can never find clothes that fit right, or feel right
- Sewing is a really cool skill
Watching more fashion and DIY Youtubers has given me an itch to make my own stuff. They all make it look really easy, but I know from past experiences that sewing is not easy and I am going to be bad at it. I think being able to make my own things will be so fulfilling. It also means I'll be able to own and wear things that other people don't have. Isn't that cool?
Continue to experiment with make-up and fashion
Make-up makes me feel good. I have a lot of fun with make-up and why would I want to stop that? I know that my skills are improving, but I still have such a long way to go before I feel like I'm ~real good at it~. I'm not very good at documenting my make-up, so I want to get better at that.
My wardrobe has been morphing into something new this year and I'm really excited. I want to post more about my clothing and what I've been wearing and what I've been wanting. Opening myself up to wearing colour was hard but now I'm living for it and I just want to spend all my money on clothes.
So I guess that's what I want to do this year.
Thanks for reading pals. Take care of yourself. Take your vitamins. Drink some water. Go for a walk in the sun xoxo